So the last few days have been good. Some firsts to report. I've felt stable, in control of how I feel. It seems as if I've finally become familiar with how my body reacts to things like sleep deprivation, hunger, thirst, caffeine, sex, stress. So this learning makes it so that everything is under control, all is good at most times, and that leads to a good ability to feel well. All of this seems good. It seems good, and then goes to heaven suddenly during what we call a "phase." Maybe what I'm noticing is that tendency becoming a bit more infrequent.

I got my bread machine. I have a crock pot, too. It's good to have good food that's easy to make.

Karate is going well. Good exercise, I can feel my pecks a little stronger already and I know I'll be into karate for a while.

Photo is also good. I know I'll learn a lot from this class, too.

The weather's getting colder. Walking home from the library today I found a lot of trash on the street, i got free bagels and wondered why it wasnt ok for me to steal them when they throw them away every other night. It doesnt make sense, and on top of that, its infuriating. My bikes running well, went on two rides to the met and beyond with Jia this weekend.

I've suddenly become organized (or at least how I've felt recently). I have a 'blackberry' and a to do list system that works. I have been surprised at how well its been working. I am waiting on a job, hopefully won't have to get one. DJing at the radio this semester. Somethings going on with Jessica, my neighbor, dont know what yet. Im trying to decide whether I want stability or whether I've grown accustomed to the up for grabs.

I become really happy when I think about the near future and plans made or to be made in Guate. I want to make this happen. Whatever this is. It's such a potential its hard to grasp confidently. There's really nothing huge in the way. My will is there, and there seems to be nothing huge or unpredictable in the way. Oh my.